why are u still in my head

Why do I still dream about you when I'm trying to forget you. I'm not sure where we was it was some kinda lodge. We was very distant from each other, but I still wanted to move in closer. The other people got I'm the way. There was some killer loose and you asked me to not be afraid and grab the key from him. I tried my best only because you asked me to do it, but I failed. Somehow we crossed paths again and I told you how much a failure I am and you held me in your arms and we kissed. It was so hard to let go. I surrounded myself with a lot of strangers. I ended up in some strange place. I burned the pages. Then I tried to drown myself but failed at that. I couldn't see what was going on outside the glass window. It wasn't covered or dirty it was perfectly clear, but for some weird reason I couldn't see through it. All I know is I woke up alone again without you.