sadness dreams

I had a dream again about you. I was so scared always afraid that some girl is going to steal you away from me. Maybe I lack confidence. Which is the most likely outcome for my love life. When I think about it we never take the time out to get to know each other. That's when I realized I live in a fantasy world. in this fantasy world you made the time to make me feel like I'm worth it. I'm special. I also become a better person because of you. You showed me how to be nice kindred spirit and spent time with me going to ____ and doing _____ please fill in the blanks. We smiled and gift each other not just items but a life embarked on a journey together and walked this unknown pathway. You are the light that the darkness ripped out of my heart. We make history together. I could only wish you was there through it all the good the bad the in-between. I want to enjoy the simple pleasures in life. Please respond back to me with love and acceptance. I'm tired of living with ghosts. It hurts. Help me embrace a new way of living with new purpose give me the love I'm currently broken and missing out on. I'm so tired of screaming out into the void. Help me make this work. I need you here. 

friends home

I don't really remember how this dream started. I was at this guy's house and I was in an room with a den size closet. Why was I hiding in there? I'm not sure but it had two doors. One Infront of me and one to my left. My dreamy bf came to get me out of there and we went someplace else he told me to go into the attic to wait while he did something. While in there there was this girl who lived there and I became jealous of her living in the same house as my dream man. It did seem like it was separate from the rest of the house though like she was just living in her own space and the rest of the place was another family. My friend finally came back from whatever he was doing and started talking with me. We talked about floating in the waters and stuff. Then we talked about food and ate together. Somehow we ended out side and I was looking at flowers and we started talking about them and how beautiful they are. All I could think about is how beautiful you are but I couldn't bring myself around to saying it. You hypnotized me I just want to live in this moment forever. Then we started talking about music and travel. Then we watched the sky and started making up short stories. I wanted to get closer to you maybe even kiss you but I held myself back I was too scared you'd run off. Then I woke up.