packs

I was with Patty in a room full of strangers and they was giving out concert tickets to whatever they choose. I told them I wasn't part of their street team or whatever club this is and I didn't do anything to earn tickets and then they said it didn't matter, but it mattered to me. I needed to earn it. Then I ended up with some tickets to a comedy show place to see a magician. Later I was in a hallway and was talking to this guy from badwolves and I dunno what we was talking about something about the actual animals. I was over Teresas but it was Debbie's old house then It was mad because someone bit off the snacks and put them back in the snack bag half bitten in n the fridge. 

brimstone

I was with someone running around see park where we found something in the water. Is that an oversized fish no wait it's a red dragon so we ran. I ended up at some town near the end of it on the right side there's a bridge there looks like it leads to Tokyo but it's blocked off and there's security yelling at us. I ask how do we get outta here? I couldn't get an answer. So me and my friends went back into the town that was falling apart to try to reach the other side for an exit. We ran through these houses that was all connected and had multiple floors. As we ran the dragon chased us and the buildings we ran through was on fire. We ended up at some convenience store. I said something about it's the end I'm surprised do they still take money as a currency? Then I stole some cigarettes and bought a drink. My friend got some snacks and drinks. We continued our journey towards the end of the road trying to out run the dragon and find an escape. We couldn't find away out it seemed like we was running forever. Then I woke up.

mall dream

I was with my cousin patty and we was talking about some house wondering how much it was. Show I ended up asking my uncle Kenny what it going for. He said jokingly I'm not telling you your not moving in. Somehow I ended up with Linda and we was trying to do a homework. We had to go to the mall for something numbers of the stores or something. 

junkies

I was sitting on a sofa at this band members house watching him broadcast off his computer. His parents was right next to me. Whoever I came to this place with was in the kitchen. I was curious on seeing and meeting his wife and kid. I don't remember half the stuff but somehow I was outside andet his little girl played awhile and then had to go. This guy comes over in a car and says can I drive him home. I'm get in and me that guy and the band member all in the car go-to his place. There was parents grandparents and a bunch of young people all ready to do all kinds of drugs I've never seen before. I finally met the little girls mother she was wasted. I told them I've never seen or heard of these things before. They all started by eatting these mushrooms then drinking, pills, and smoking. I thought to myself someone is going to o.d. but I just kept my mouth shut and watched them all. They began to change their behaviors. They was looking at things and saying things that made no sense. I was thinking to myself they are nuts and wonder what they think of me since I wasn't seeming to fit in much. Then it happened some girl brings me this tube of blue juice with measurements on it. I drink some of it and say that's all I want nothing else for me I've never even had this before. What is it? Not sure if she even told me. The next thing I know is I have tears coming out my eyes and laughing so hard but I don't even know why. I kept asking the grandparents what these numbers say in this cup as I tired to read it to them. Then some how I was in this other room someone was talking to me I dunno what was happening lips moving but what was said I dunno. Someone said they need to stop feeling because whatever they took wasn't working. I tried to walk around see if I could. I didn't do anything else after that just tired to get to know these people. Then the dream ended and I woke up.

lost n broken

As I look at other people and their lives how it's changed overtime. I try to sit outside myself and see what has changed in my life and I can't find anything. Maybe I'm just insanity for the rest of my life doing the samething over and the results always the same. You've already grew up had multiple dates, homes, jobs, kids, etc. You've made and shared the good and bad memories. I just here pretending I've experienced those things. You have pictures on your walls of family and friends. I have pictures on my wall of strangers I've met once but never see again. When I think back to a memory all I have are movies, books, and anything that's not real because it's someone else's story. I'm just an empty page about to expire and fade away into the nothingness I've become. 

lustful

I was living with my parents maybe I was younger. I met this guy from someplace else who came over and was sneaking around my house. He was hiding in my room and instead of us talking and dating he undressed himself. I began to cry and say I can't do this then he got up started talking some other language and proceeded to leave. He poured some yellow juice all over the floor because somehow it's supposed to looked like he peed himself. I told him to stop that's not going to cover up anything and you shouldn't be leaving you should have been honest then maybe you won't have to hide from my parents. Just as he left he said I'll see you tomorrow. Then I woke up.

dream zomoc

I was some place running around a building with some unknown people trying to kill zombies. Somehow I was on a boat or something following some markers to different parts of the ocean where I couldn't see what was out there until I got closer. I made it to an island someplace and must of bought something at the store. Not sure what else that's all I can remember.

when the lines start to blur...

Sometimes it feels like yesterday and other times it feels like the images are starting to blur I can't find the difference between reality and fanasty. I don't know if it was real or did my mind just give me an vision all on its own. I can't even take a step back enter a flashback and remember. Am I going insane.  Having a brainmelt hearing voices that aren't really there. I like my fired eggs yolky always searching for the sunnyside of things. It's sad when the pages of life start to blur and I can't seem to keep a single moment of happiness awake. Even in the end it cuts like a knife. I found faith in the metal blade that pentatraits my skin. Sometimes I wish I was a robot numb to emotion but still have the capacity to keep storage. Tell me why there's more success in pain compared to walking the righteous one. Why am I still roaming around in the dark when will you give me a flashlight. My vision is faded my brain is melting down.and you just keep leaving me here with this knife I hold onto. Wake up open your eyes they can't see you they don't know what you are. They never even tired. 

think too much bad and bad will stay find good

Lots of times I never say anything just to my journals because I don't like drama or conflict. And with most people that feed on it. So I never talk about anything because I know it always bad timing or other people come first and they say you should have patience. So I place myself in the back of the line when it comes to talking about the bad things. Do I like not talking about it yes I'd rather write it down someplace. Why because I have been this way my whole life. So don't make me feel like I can't speak or trust because I'll be the one in the fight losing it. But when I look to another topic another scene another story and other people I don't feel so bad because we all do it. It's okay to be human. I just don't have the ideal dream worthy humans connected to it where its beautiful and not stressing all the time. I will have to learn how to make things better. I will not continue to associate with the bad things. Always look for God and treat others how you wish to be treated. Don't get mad at me because you assume it's you or you understand something you know nothing about because you are not the one there experiencing it. I'm not a downer if anything I am that light. And speaking of light this sweetlight gets upset when she is on her game and is trying to achieve something and gets kicked out or not given the chance to succeed. Same thing goes for any other people or place in life. I am fine when I find like minded people who are trying to achieve the samethings and we try are best to complete an activity. Do I get mad when I have to complete a team effort on my own yes I do because I do need that structure and I'm willing to do whatever it takes. So I just gotta keep bringing out the best of everything. 

what in the...

I was going the the street with some of my friends and I didn't want to go without my shoes so I said stop when they crossed the street because I wanted to go back. They didn't stop and wait for me. I went back anyways talking to myself saying fine I'll go walk by myself I don't need them. I was at the door on my way out there was see party across the street. This boy came over and said where you going? Then I told him what happened he said it's ok I'll walk with you my friends left me too. Then I said something about a plane and like a minute after that I told him I'm psychic but there was a loud noise in the sky. Then it got really quiet the plane disappeared. All at once there was this big explosion in the sky. I said see the plane just blew up, but that wasn't just it there was this huge robot that came out of the explosion. We took this big square thing and put it against the door. The thing went down the road in a different direction but still we was scared. Someone came to the door and pushed their way through. We got yelled at for blocking the door. Mostly because my friend was still out there. I said you didn't see that big giant robot thing with long metal legs and a glass like yellow middle? Run into the basement where will we hide where will we go? Or the roof I don't its huge. This is insane. I dunno what else happened because I woke up so I'm not sure which sucks because I was interested in seeing on what was going to happen next. How could they not believe me of what happened or not even see it it was like a giant. Someone thought I was crazy.

ice 🍨

I was walking around some town they had all these shops and casinos which I wanted to go inside because they looked like parties. Somehow  I ended up at my cousin's house which was huge like a manison. It had a pool with a beach connected to it. I was going to jump into the water when I seen there was alot of rocks and the waves never stop pushing. That's when I realized you couldn't see there, but the pool was safe. Jessie and buddha was fishing out front. Jenny was in the kitchen making us ice cream. After I smoked I went into the kitchen where I seen this magic hand device with a circular saw spinning around I'm the air by itself. I told jenny to run. The ice cream was like a mountain and this magic hand device was flying around it cutting it up. I started laughing so hard I wasn't sure what was going on. I told Jessie to give me some more smoke because that stuff was so good  seeing flying objects in the kitchen. Lol. I dunno what jenny ever did with the ice cream if we ever got to eat it or what because I woke up laughing so hard.

unhappy

I had this bad dream about this black guy who wouldn't leave me alone. it got so bad to the point where he grabbed some bottles of bleach and took them downstairs in the basement. I went down to see what he was doing and there was this barrel full of green toxic water with my rabbit inside of it. I tired to save it he grabbed it out of the barrel and then I grabbed my rabbit. Her teeth was showing and there was green smoke coming off her body and I cried as she died. This black guy killed my rabbit because I wouldn't give into him. Now I hated him more. I screamed for help but no one could hear me. 

dark

I had this nightmare where I was in this place and there was all these strangers and my parents at my house partying. I'm was pissed because I never had any friends to party like that before with. Then I'll was mad because all the rooms was wrecked. I hated the dirty floors and mess they all was making and I wasn't even invited. I told my parents I wish they was dead because they was ruining everything. They left and so did the others. I came home again and this time there was yet another party of strangers in my place and I was mad again. This time it wasn't dirty and there was less people. I still yelled for everyone to leave. Then somehow I had to sleep on the floor next to some guy trying to sick on my tits and I pushed him off saying not until I'm married. I'm sick of all u people go home. So I left and went to hide out front under some stairs. Some girl and her friends had me playing some kind of game on the sidewalk. Then some girl with a sword came back killing everyone. I ran back into the apartment and shut the door on one of the other girls that was from from the killer. I just wanted to get out of there. I almost didn't make it. I tired to tell everyone what was happening no one belived me. 

naughty

I was with some people it's like it was halloween or something. We watching TV or going into the tv then we ended up at some house. I remember running up and down the stairs. Somehow they was trying to turn me into a vampire like they are. Some guy picked up an ghostface costume from a store window. He said he was the devil so I ran away but then I didn't run no more I was super hornet. I was having the best sex ever with the devil and I liked it. It felt so real. But then again when I wake up to waking world it's the real hell. I'd rather stay in my dreams because now I'm just angry. 

I had a dream

I was living in this big house with a dungeon in the basement. Everyone came over and threw a party. Someone was complaining because there wasn't a servers for their drinks. Somehow I was in the basement climbing this wood rope thing trying to not fall into the water. We got through that then people was dressed up with sheilds and weapons they jump on us we didn't have any armor. Then I woke up.