lustful

I was living with my parents maybe I was younger. I met this guy from someplace else who came over and was sneaking around my house. He was hiding in my room and instead of us talking and dating he undressed himself. I began to cry and say I can't do this then he got up started talking some other language and proceeded to leave. He poured some yellow juice all over the floor because somehow it's supposed to looked like he peed himself. I told him to stop that's not going to cover up anything and you shouldn't be leaving you should have been honest then maybe you won't have to hide from my parents. Just as he left he said I'll see you tomorrow. Then I woke up.

dream zomoc

I was some place running around a building with some unknown people trying to kill zombies. Somehow I was on a boat or something following some markers to different parts of the ocean where I couldn't see what was out there until I got closer. I made it to an island someplace and must of bought something at the store. Not sure what else that's all I can remember.

when the lines start to blur...

Sometimes it feels like yesterday and other times it feels like the images are starting to blur I can't find the difference between reality and fanasty. I don't know if it was real or did my mind just give me an vision all on its own. I can't even take a step back enter a flashback and remember. Am I going insane.  Having a brainmelt hearing voices that aren't really there. I like my fired eggs yolky always searching for the sunnyside of things. It's sad when the pages of life start to blur and I can't seem to keep a single moment of happiness awake. Even in the end it cuts like a knife. I found faith in the metal blade that pentatraits my skin. Sometimes I wish I was a robot numb to emotion but still have the capacity to keep storage. Tell me why there's more success in pain compared to walking the righteous one. Why am I still roaming around in the dark when will you give me a flashlight. My vision is faded my brain is melting down.and you just keep leaving me here with this knife I hold onto. Wake up open your eyes they can't see you they don't know what you are. They never even tired. 

think too much bad and bad will stay find good

Lots of times I never say anything just to my journals because I don't like drama or conflict. And with most people that feed on it. So I never talk about anything because I know it always bad timing or other people come first and they say you should have patience. So I place myself in the back of the line when it comes to talking about the bad things. Do I like not talking about it yes I'd rather write it down someplace. Why because I have been this way my whole life. So don't make me feel like I can't speak or trust because I'll be the one in the fight losing it. But when I look to another topic another scene another story and other people I don't feel so bad because we all do it. It's okay to be human. I just don't have the ideal dream worthy humans connected to it where its beautiful and not stressing all the time. I will have to learn how to make things better. I will not continue to associate with the bad things. Always look for God and treat others how you wish to be treated. Don't get mad at me because you assume it's you or you understand something you know nothing about because you are not the one there experiencing it. I'm not a downer if anything I am that light. And speaking of light this sweetlight gets upset when she is on her game and is trying to achieve something and gets kicked out or not given the chance to succeed. Same thing goes for any other people or place in life. I am fine when I find like minded people who are trying to achieve the samethings and we try are best to complete an activity. Do I get mad when I have to complete a team effort on my own yes I do because I do need that structure and I'm willing to do whatever it takes. So I just gotta keep bringing out the best of everything. 

what in the...

I was going the the street with some of my friends and I didn't want to go without my shoes so I said stop when they crossed the street because I wanted to go back. They didn't stop and wait for me. I went back anyways talking to myself saying fine I'll go walk by myself I don't need them. I was at the door on my way out there was see party across the street. This boy came over and said where you going? Then I told him what happened he said it's ok I'll walk with you my friends left me too. Then I said something about a plane and like a minute after that I told him I'm psychic but there was a loud noise in the sky. Then it got really quiet the plane disappeared. All at once there was this big explosion in the sky. I said see the plane just blew up, but that wasn't just it there was this huge robot that came out of the explosion. We took this big square thing and put it against the door. The thing went down the road in a different direction but still we was scared. Someone came to the door and pushed their way through. We got yelled at for blocking the door. Mostly because my friend was still out there. I said you didn't see that big giant robot thing with long metal legs and a glass like yellow middle? Run into the basement where will we hide where will we go? Or the roof I don't its huge. This is insane. I dunno what else happened because I woke up so I'm not sure which sucks because I was interested in seeing on what was going to happen next. How could they not believe me of what happened or not even see it it was like a giant. Someone thought I was crazy.

ice 🍨

I was walking around some town they had all these shops and casinos which I wanted to go inside because they looked like parties. Somehow  I ended up at my cousin's house which was huge like a manison. It had a pool with a beach connected to it. I was going to jump into the water when I seen there was alot of rocks and the waves never stop pushing. That's when I realized you couldn't see there, but the pool was safe. Jessie and buddha was fishing out front. Jenny was in the kitchen making us ice cream. After I smoked I went into the kitchen where I seen this magic hand device with a circular saw spinning around I'm the air by itself. I told jenny to run. The ice cream was like a mountain and this magic hand device was flying around it cutting it up. I started laughing so hard I wasn't sure what was going on. I told Jessie to give me some more smoke because that stuff was so good  seeing flying objects in the kitchen. Lol. I dunno what jenny ever did with the ice cream if we ever got to eat it or what because I woke up laughing so hard.

unhappy

I had this bad dream about this black guy who wouldn't leave me alone. it got so bad to the point where he grabbed some bottles of bleach and took them downstairs in the basement. I went down to see what he was doing and there was this barrel full of green toxic water with my rabbit inside of it. I tired to save it he grabbed it out of the barrel and then I grabbed my rabbit. Her teeth was showing and there was green smoke coming off her body and I cried as she died. This black guy killed my rabbit because I wouldn't give into him. Now I hated him more. I screamed for help but no one could hear me.